WHY? We live in "a monstrous time for which we have no name yet" says philosopher Peter Sloterdijk. This book contains essays I wrote during the years 2018 and 2019 to wrap my mind around three questions: WHY is it that our gorgeous western culture is obviously racing towards the Apocalypse? WHY is it that this is a well known scientific fact, and yet nobody seems to care? HOW can a feeling and thinking person, driven by reason as well as moral and empathy, live during such monstrous times? Writing helped me to find answers. It helped me to develope a political consciousness. And it helped me to remain mentally stable during monstrous times. May this book help others too.